Guardian Angels

“Being spiritual is believing beyond yourself. When our loved ones warn us of our poor decisions, maybe it's one of our Guardian Angels speaking through them.”

I don’t know what you guys believe in and I am not pushing you to believe in anything I believe in, so please do not think I want pushing my own agendas onto you.

So my origin belief is Buddhism which is a karama based religion where you put out into the world what you want back and you do on to others what you want done to you, things like that. The religion also believes in reincarnation and what you do in this life determines who or what you will become in the next life. With me being raised in an American society, I have adopted some Christian beliefs, which I think all religion ties into each other in some form. “Love thy Neighbor” - is that not one of the 10 Commandments that are supposed to help us shape our character? But I am not going to get into that tyraid of how people should be, or at the very least, how I think they should be.

I fully believe in an afterlife, whether that is Heaven or Hell or whether I become someone else in another life, I believe we go somewhere. But I also believe that while I am here now, there is purpose for me even if I don’t know it. Not neccessaily purpose in what I do for a living, but purpose in my interactions and connections with people I come across. Think about your life. Can you think of how many people you have spoken to? How many people you learned from? How many people you taught something to? Don’t just think of the positive outcomes, think of the latter too.

In my life, I know I have affected people. I know I have made people happy, feel important, and feel loved. I also know that I have hurt people, dissappointed them, and made them feel like an afterthought. I know I have people who will defend me, no questions asked, there’s people who will support me under certain conditions, and then there’s people who instantly get upset when my name is brought up. But with everything I have done or said, I have learned something about myself. What about you? Do you learn something about yourself periodically or are you perfect? In which case, why are you here?

And in believing what I believe, I also believe I have a team of Guardian Angels who are designated to me to guide me through my different obstacles in life whether it’s dealing with work, business, family, friends, or matters of the heart. Maybe one of them is my grandmother, or maybe they were sent by my granddmother or other people who have passed that want me to be taken care of. I had a previous lover who passed traggically and who has appeared in my dreams a few times. Before his passing, our very last conversation with each other was catching up about our lives, how we were both doing and what goals we wanted to achieve. Each time he shows up in my dreams we have those same types of conversations and I wake up feeling a sense of hope and love. I have no doubt he looks in me from time to time. ❤️😇

To My People Who Care For Me…

I am not perfect. I am always learning and going through changes. For those who see me from a distance and those who stick by me even when I not being my best, I pray you have the same types of people watching and caring over you too. - Love, Raya L. ❤️

I have so many people who love and care about me, who think about me, who ask about me, and who keep track of me even when I don’t know it. 📌 So anything that is poorly perceived of me is a judgement someone made because they felt a disadvantage from me being present. I have no control over that. My confidence exudes, I am not apologetic about it. 📌 If you believe what you hear about me, go hear it again. If you know me and if you pay attention to how I carry myself, you will know if what you heard is real or something people assumed who also want you to assume the same things. I do not make assumptions, I observe and make calculations and I have learned that people tend to get very defensive when I am right, or at least when they don’t like being wrong or called out, I notice that too. I watch how people move. People are creatures of habit and do not stray too far away from their instinctive behaviors.

I listen to my intuition a lot, but what if it’s not all my own intuition? What if it’s a divine source that’s giving me notice or warning? Letting me know I am heading the right direction OR I need to rethink my moves. There’s been many times I do not listen to warnings and still carry on with not so great decisions, but I still remain here, intact, and a stronger individual. Is that the work of my Angels? Do they have a plan to carry out for me? Because I have been in circumstances that could have broken me to pieces and turned me into an person no one wants to be around, but I am not.

So we may not know why we are here or why we meet the people we meet, but I am certain that everything happens for a reason and the universe always knows what it’s doing. I also know that my Gaurdian Angels sometimes grow weary of me and my antics, but I am confident I am still around and still have the connections I have with people because either they have purpose in my life or I have purpose in theirs, or a mix of both. 😇 Or in someway, we are living Guardian Angels for each other.

Be safe everyone. 🙏🏽


The Partner Prayer

“The Universe always knows what it's doing even when we don’t.”

So I've been getting into deep topics with you guys lately. Let keep in this vibe a little longer. So amongst some women, they've been talking about a "Partner Prayer" that is supposed to bless them with a good man. Where God is going to hear what they want an need and send them a man who will make their lives full and abundant.

Now I don't you if you all pray or are devoutly religious, but I don't believe in that "Partner Prayer". Let me tell you why, if praying for someone it's not going to be praying for someone to love me, rather I'm praying for someone's peace and happiness because when I pray for my friends and loved ones, that's what I pray for because that's what I'll be praying for myself too. One of the friends who I caught up with the other day,I let him know I think about him and his family a lot because they're still healing from something and I pray for them alot. Another friend's mom had a major loss in her life and I think about her a lot too and their family is in my prayers. The thing about pain is that it never goes away, we to learn to cope with it better. So why would I pray for a man to love me fully if there's so many other people I can be praying for to help heal their hearts, I want God to hear those prayers.

I'm not going to pray for a companion, I am going to pray for my love to be abundant. I'm praying for patience, for strength, for understanding, for empathy, for better days. I pray that I stand firm in my values. I pray that I can let go of what's hurting me. I pray that pain doesn't taint me. I'm praying for the goodness to be vibrant in me even after I'm disappointed. I'm praying to accept people's love and affection for me even when it doesn't seem like a lot, but to just accept that maybe that's all they can give. I'm not praying for God to bring me a man. And I don't know any of you ladies who do pray for that, I just won't do it.

Remember when I said to start telling yourself: "I CANNOT MISS OUT ON ANYTHING THAT ISN'T MEANT FOR ME."

I can't miss out on men who don't see me for me and want to see me for what they want me to be like. And I don’t like anyone pushing into a relationship that I don’t find conducive to my happiness and well-being. If I want to be involved with someone, that is my choice along with his, not because of what others think may be good for me. So you guys can pray for whatever you want to, but I am going to pray growth within myself and love for those who I care about.

Be safe everyone. 🙏🏽

“I feel loved and blessed. I pray for others to feel loved and be blessed too.”