Is 40 still considered a momentous age? I really don't feel much different. My heart is young, but I feel like my soul lived much longer. I like old school music like jazz and rnb. I like the hyper music too, but I more prefer the relaxed sounds.
I have learned a lot in my 40 years, there's a few new things about myself I’ve learned recently, but here are my top lessons:
Get rest - You can work hard and you can play hard, but always make sure you get some rest so your body and your mind gets a chance to reset itself.
Life is unpredictable - You can be a great planner, but ultimately things will happen the way they happen.
You can only control yourself - Even if you have children, there's no change you can control everything they do, just like you cannot control what anyone else does. You only have full autonomy of yourself, what you say, what you do, and how you react.
Perfect relationships are fairytales - Every relationship has unique cadences and caveats that make it what it is. Sometimes those relationships work for everyone, sometimes they work for only one person, and sometimes they don't work at all.
Love is not a weakness - Loving someone takes strength and energy. When you love people, you are consciously thinking of their happiness, comfort, and and well-being. And loving people who don’t love you back the same doesn’t make you foolish, you just know how to be warm even when someone wants to be cold.
I’m not a person who is ashamed of getting older or feel that I need to prove to people I can still be young. I still have my late nights sometimes, but I love when I'm under my covers before 10pm. My younger friends always hype my up and tell me they admire how I carry myself and even my older friends and the ones my age compliment how I move and take care of myself. I want to be someone who looks like life wasn't hard on her, I’ve had my tough times and some heartache here and there, but I don’t think it shows on me and I like to believe it’s because any struggles I went through, I didn't feel sorry for myself, I did look for pity, and I didn't act like I had no other options, I just took my licks and made the best of it all.
I've not had a lover in the last few years and I think that contributed to how I’ve grown as a woman who wants intimacy over empty connections. A fun night is a fun night, but I want someone to imprint on my life and vice versa. Even if it doesn’t last long. I’ve heard stories of people having a great summer love that they still think about or someone they spent time with when they were traveling in another country. I’d like to have one story like that. - The summer did just begin, so it is possible, we'll see. I think I’m becoming more open to freestyleing my love life, just respect me and show me love.
With my professional life, some of you may remember from a previous topic that I decided to take a leap and shift my business plan slightly. I’m going into unknown territory for myself and I have no clue what the rest of the year will look like, but regardless of what happens, I’m going to make it work.
I am very pleased with who I am right now and the types of people I have in my life. I hope people continue to see how much love and support I give towards my loved ones and also know that even on bad terms, they can still count on me to be there in times of need. I want to be someone who is worth the time and the effort. I want to be someone who makes people smile just by showing up. I want to be someone that pops into someone's thoughts when they think of good things. Because there's people in my life who do that for me. ❤️
I hope you all have a great weekend. Be safe everyone.
