Looking For Trouble

A little revelation about my 2 dreams, if you need to catch up with what I’m talking about go to the post right before this one. There's a few audio clips in there. I still keep having the dreams, except the recent nights, I now think the person I’m calling and the person standing next to me is the same person. With the phone dream, instead of calling the person, I am texting the person and this time the person sent a message back. What was said in the message was the same thing the person in the other dream said to me, but I can’t make out his voice. Sometimes my dreams have a funny way of keeping me wondering until it actually happens in my waking life. Seems cruel, huh? 😏 But at least now I know the two dreams are connected!

Also, another thing I should mention is the whole Keke Palmer fiasco with her partner. I know, I just hyped those two up and now the Usher thing happened and things seem to be iffy between them, but hey I did tell you guys….forever doesn't last a long time! I do see both sides to it, for Keke, she’s out with her friends, she’s feeling good, and she’s just enjoying herself. For her partner, he sees the woman he is with who is also the mother of his child wearing a very revealing outfit and in the face of another man. Look, I wear things all the time that show parts of my body, but I am very conscious of how close I am to a man, even being single. I do hope they find a way to communicate and be cordial even if they don’t stay together.

“There's such things as good trouble.”

Let's talk about trouble. I do believe if you're looking for trouble, you will definitely find it, no matter what it is. I also believe there's such things as good trouble. We’ll talk more about that in a minute. If you are looking for something to be wrong about someone, you will find it, guaranteed, but don’t go looking for something that doesn’t need to be found, let that sit for a bit, that may mean something different to each of you. For instance, don’t look for something to justify anything you did wrong or could have done better. Like don’t try to pull out someone else’s flaws when you still need to work on yours. Don’t call-out someone else, if you can’t accept being called out. But, if your gut is telling you something is not right, listen to it, because you are probably correct. And at that point you need to decide if what you are feeling is something you can deal with long term.

So let’s talk about “good trouble”. Good trouble is what I call taking a risk, but it’s not causing harm to anyone. Like complimenting someone who you may have some history with, but what makes it “trouble” is not knowing where that compliment will get you, you guys following me here? Will it get you to a happy ending or will it just be words that stood in one place?

So let me share something really quick: Every now and then, I say some suggestive things to a guy I know, I’m not sure if he’s noticed it because I always say I’m joking and the reason I do that is, I am not sure if I want what I say to go any further than just a statement. I’m so cory, I know. I just don’t want to get into any BS with anyone and I’ve been good on my celibacy kick, even though I don’t refer to it as that because my purpose is not to abstain from sex, but more so abstain from getting involved with someone who is going to bring me down as opposed to being considerate to me. My Goods are GOOD right now and I want to keep it that way and I am only willing to share my good with someone who is transparent with me….BUT HELL, I don’t know, one of these days someone might just say the right thing at the right moment…and that’s all she wrote!

Ideally, there is nothing wrong if you want a little trouble here and there, just be careful with how much you may be rocking the boat and don’t do anything that may put you in a compromising situation. Be careful out there everyone.

Dream A Little Dream

Don’t feel like listening? Listen instead.

I am a dreamer by all definitions. There's a lot of things I can figure out with time, experience, or research, but the one thing I can never be certain of is how to interpret my dreams. Everyone dreams, but there's been an interesting study that majority of people don’t remember their dreams the next morning. I almost always remember what I dreamt the night before, of course as days go on I slowly forget the details except when the dream is a little odd. I read that the dreams you remember most are the dreams that have a message. I don't know where the messages are coming from, but in my experience, I agree.

I also read somewhere when the mind is stressed or going though unexpected changes, your subconscious sends you messages in your dreams to help you identify elements in your waking life. With all that has been going on in my life, my dreams been leaving distinct residue on my mind. A few nights ago, I dreamt that someone handed me an egg. The egg cracked and I saw the yolk. There mixed meanings of seeing an egg in your dream, but you also have to consider other parts of the dream, like the color of the egg, what type of egg, and who else was in the dream. Generally, having an egg dream is a good omen representing new opportunities. But it can also represent privacy or a void of your emotions. That fact that in my dream the egg crack and opened up could signify that I need to open up or speak out about my feelings about something.

Several weeks ago I dreamt of a guy I know and in the dream it shown me that he got involved with someone he told me he never had anything going on with. — Isn't that how it always happens? The person someone tell you not to be worried about ends up being the same person they start fooling with some time later? Probably because of all the “friendly” times they shared together and one time they just took it further. Anyway, I’ve had dreams like this before were there is some type of message stemming from my intuition that tells me my suspicions aren’t all off based. I once had a dream about a man I was sleeping with and in the dream he is walking away from me and saying to me, “You need to go…” In my dream I was upset, confused, and hurt. About a month later it comes out that the man started seeing someone and didn't tell me until I began to question him about his behavior. Just like in my dream, I was upset, confused, and hurt. He tried to excuse the fact of not telling me by saying he feels at peace when he’s around me and he didn't want to ruin that. — Men like this will always have issues managing their feelings with different women. They don’t know how to separate lust and love and they damage people along the way. — ❗️ Goodness, if I ever decide to write a book, there’s one name that would keep coming up, and that man is entirely convinced I had several partners in the time that I’ve known him 😒. No sir, I’m one of the good ones.

When I was still with my ex and I was already on the verge of ending things due to him having a child outside our home (this isn't a secret, everyone knows, my family knows, his family knows, the town we lived in knows, all our friends know. It was an embarrassment for both of us, especially him considering how my life has improved tremendously after leaving). I had a dream that the other woman had 2 children. 2 boys to be exact and at that time she only had the one son…fast forward a few months later, she is pregnant again and has a boy! And yes by the same man. Yup, that did it for me…on top of many other things in our damaged relationship. I told you, when men fck up, they fck up pretty badly and when they do, don’t ever let him touch you again. Although, if you're the kind of woman who just gets better after pain, then you'll no longer have any interest on those past men anyways…What did I say before? “The further ahead you get in life, the more your type becomes less your type.” — Men who you move on from knew a part of you that no longer exists, and that part is the soft spot you used to have for him. The feelings are never the same again.

I think I have dreams like this because I’m a very engaged person when I’m involved with someone, I may not always show it, but when I open my heart to people I’m blindly loyal and the universe seems to find a way to tell me I need to step back when the person isn't giving me the same energy. But after any type of heartache, I do have dreams that send symbolic elements referring to healing, growth, and perseverance. For instance, after being severely disappointed, I dreamt of water lilies. Dreams of water lilies signify an evolution from a negative starting point to a positive end. The flower represents rebirth and a willingness to try again while the leaf or pad of the plant represents a solid place from which to gain stability when the world feels as though it is constantly shifting and changing.

I’ve had dreams about people I’ve not reached out to in a while and when I do finally give them a call, I learned major life news about them. Or someone I care about will popup in my dream that wakes me up out of my sleep; when this happens it usually because something severe had just happened to them. I also have dreams about people who have passed and relatives of other people who I’ve never met, for instance, I never met my ex’s mother because she passed before I met him but she appeared in my dream when I was pregnant with our first child.

I heard that when people have near death incidences the wall between life and the spiritual world becomes thin. I’ve had several near death experiences in my life which is why I am convinced that I have Guardian Angels or at least someone on the other side looking out for me. The first one was when I was 3 years old, something severe happened to me that people started to lose hope that I would pull through. I do not know if it is because I am very intuitive or somehow I am closely connected to the spiritual world, but for the most part, my dreams seem to tell me what to be conscious of or what to be prepared for.